Are complete and utter cowards. It rained earlier and the sound of rain on the windows had them in fits of terror normally reservered for Bonfire Night.
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Walking pictures, or, I left the house today
Walking back from the doctors surgery and I saw this little one flitting about. Cheered me up slightly. My anxiety and depression is playing up today and my back is painful. I’m finally getting some physio though, after four years of being fobbed off and ignored, and told it’ll fix itself if I lose weight, or it’s all in my head.

Shared from WordPress – Garlic Bread of the Revolution
Garlic Bread of the Revolution – http://wp.me/p5MCkF-1Lo
I’ve made bread today because of this post from Gods&Radicals; as ever it’s made from whatever I had in the cupboard. This one has dried rosemary in it, a bit of rapeseed oil, honey, salt, dried yeast, flour and water. Not much in the way of measures since I do everything by eye and touch – I know when the dough is right.
The bread is rising at the minute, and the butter for the garlic butter is softening on the side. I will be making garlic bread later 🙂
Going out to tidy the back garden now and consider what I need to do to get it productive this year.
My brain is a bit wobbly today so I think being outside will be good for me but I’m not up to walking the dogs. They’re fine with that, they’re sunbathing in my bedroom 🙂
Edit: the bread is almost cooked and looks lovely. The garlic and herb butter is made. The loaf is so big I’ll have to cut a piece off to make the garlic bread with.
Further edit: I have garlic bread, it is amazing. Bow before my culinary skills.
Actually, don’t bow down to me, or anybody else. It’s bad for your back.
New Year’s Reflections
Good morning and happy new year.
It’s that time of year again when people make all sorts of resolutions to change their behaviour, usually in some superficial way, for the coming year. As usual, I am refusing to play along. It’s still winter(and will be for another few months), I’m in hibernation mode, so instead of making resolutions I’m reflecting on the past year and considering what I’ve learnt.
This year has been a struggle with my mental health conditions and with financial instability. I think I’ve come to the new year slightly stronger than I was a year ago. I can deal with household crises if I have a bit of back up when I have to deal with companies (thanks Elaine and Dad), and I can make my money stretch to cover the odd treat as well as the bills. I’m still struggling with social interaction. Parties and crowds overwhelm me, too much noise feels like it’s worming it’s way in to my head. I have coping strategies now though and I can apply them. I just have to remember to. I’m remembering to eat regularly and take my medication, most of the time, and I try to not go too many days without leaving the house.
I’ve learnt that there are certain things I need to do to maintain my mental health, boundaries I need to maintain and thoughts I have to question. Just because my mind is telling me my friends are ignoring me and that I’ve been abandoned, (In have massive problems with feeling abandoned by people and always have – there is nothing rational about this) that doesn’t make it real. Just because my brain is telling me I’m an inconvenience to everyone, that doesn’t make it true. I need to express how I feel rather than bottling it up and then exploding with irrational rage. Saying ‘you hurt me when you do/say/etc. this’ is not more trouble than it’s worth. People aren’t going to stop loving me because I’m being honest (and most of them are used to my randomness anyway).
I’ve learnt that I can survive pretty much anything, because I have gone through a lot in the last few years and yet, despite coming close on occasion, I am still alive. I have a job and friends, a supportive family and my meds. This year will be better than last, I’m determined that it will.
Happy New Year
Rose
xXx
Happy New Year’s Eve
Hello,
I’ve been quiet, haven’t I? I haven’t forgotten you, and I’m busy working my way through a variety of books so I can review them for you, but I have been very ill. This cold isn’t giving up easily and I’ve had to spend three days in bed. I’ve also had a household appliance crisis. My fridge freezer died on Christmas Day; the funeral is this afternoon, just as soon as the replacement gets delivered. I’ve been using the freezer as a refrigerator, my kitchen is colder than the fridge. I’m getting quite worried about the cheese.Continue reading “Happy New Year’s Eve”
Home at last
I’ve only been away overnight but it’s nice to be home, snuggling with my doggies. I had a lovely couple of days in Harrogate with my friends. Continue reading “Home at last”
Yule prep
I’ve got the house decorated.
My cardboard Yule tree, bought from The woodland Trust five or six years ago.
Ezzie approves of the decoration and the new electric fire
[Alter pictures to come next week]
I usually wait until the 21st; I had planned to go shopping this afternoon but my stomach problems are giving me trouble so I stayed home and decorated. I’m also busy this weekend, and not free until Wednesday, so today is a good a day as any.
14th December 2015 general rambling
Evening all, how are you all? I have a cold, I also have Netflix now. That will become relevant later.
Writing Update
I’m working on my novel again, or trying to write every day. The dogs don’t like it, my knee is for their heads to rest on and my hands are for stroking them, according to the Hell Hounds, not for tapping away at my laptop trying to get a novel finished this year. I’m still studying my writing course, but I haven’t been well so I haven’t been working on the current assignment for a few months. The assignment is to write a piece for a travel magazine and to outline another on the same subject from a different angle. I haven’t travelled much so I’ll have to write something about Lincolnshire.

‘Netflix’Â and other televisual things
Now I have ‘Netflix’ I can watch a few things that I like or wanted to see. I’ve been working on my ‘A Christmas Carol’ watching mission – how many versions of ‘A Christmas Carol’ can I see in December; I’ve managed two so far. I started watching ‘Jessica Jones’ and a few episodes of ‘Grimm’. I’ve also started watching ‘From Dusk ’til Dawn’, the series. I saw the film that the series is based on years ago, and while the story was good, the character played by Quentin Tarantino squicked me out with his sick rape fantasies. I thought the character of Richie Gecko was going to be the same in the series. Luckily, Zane Holt’s ‘Richie’ is a lot less vile (I honestly think that has to do with the actor rather than the character), and the longer format of a series rather than a film allows for better character and plot development. I’ve just finished watching series one, and am moving on to series two this evening.
I’ve been watching ‘The Last Kingdom’, the BBC series based on Bernard Cornwall’s Uhtred of Bebbanberg books. I really enjoyed it, and luckily so did my dad, so I had someone to discuss it with yesterday now that we’ve both seen all eight episodes. We’ve both read the first half dozen books too. I’ve tried to find my copy of ‘The Last Kingdom’ so that I can compare the books with the series, but I can’t find it. It has to be around somewhere but I still haven’t got all my books shelved and organised after moving more than 15 months ago. I still need at least one more set of book shelves; when I get them I’ll be able to arrange my books by author and series the way I want to. As it is I’m wracking my brains trying to remember the plot and characters. I like Brida much better in the series than in the books, as far as I remember, and Alfred is still as sanctimonious as ever. I really can’t stand Odda the Younger, but then I couldn’t stand him in the books either. If I remember correctly he was the same age as Uhtred in the books, and a large man. Seeing him played by a younger, smaller man who looks barely out of his teens grated slightly. It was nice to see him finally die though, the little scum bag traitor. I don’t like Asser either, but then I didn’t like him in the books either. Leofric was also one of my favourite characters in the series. Uhtred is a really good character and I think Alexander Dreymon is a really good actor.

The series is based on books, which mix history and fiction, and the series does the same thing. The distinctive styles of English and Danish dress and hairstyles, the tattoos and make-up, are deliberate constructs designed to separate the two visually. It’s something I noticed in ‘Vikings’ as well. There’s a distinct preference for the Danes in both series; they get all the best storylines, character (Brida vs. Mildreth), clothes and make up. Both also suggest the English didn’t know how to fight until some Dane came along and taught them too. Clearly neither production team know anything about early Anglo-Saxon history. Shields, contrary to ‘The Last Kingdom’ were circular, wooden and covered in leather, sometimes with decorative fittings. They were fairly successful in warfare if the available sources are to be believed. I do wish television and films would stop messing with history; if you’re going to make a film set in a specific period at least get the details right.
If they make a second series I hope they don’t screw up Æthelflæd, Alfred’s daughter, known as Lady of the Mercians (seriously, look her up, she’s cool. The Danes were going to surrender to her, but she died in the early tenth century just a few weeks two soon). Bernard Cornwall admitted in his books that he made the character of her husband, Athelred of Mercia, in to a much nastier character than he was in reality (again if the sources can be trusted).
Mental Health
It has been a funny month so far. I haven’t been great, to be honest. My brain has been more than a little bit scrambled. When someone says they’ll do something for me then backs out it makes me feel worthless and unwanted, like I’m a massive inconvenience to everyone. Rationally, I know that isn’t the case, but my brain isn’t being rational at that point. It took a few days to get over and I’ve had the odd off day since, but I’m not too bad at the minute. I keep getting tired and need to go to bed really early. But if I go to bed too soon I end up waking up at stupid o’clock in the morning. At which point I get up, wander round the house for a while, maybe do some cleaning then go back to bed and sleep until mid-morning. It’s really messing with my reading/writing/sewing schedule.
Does Freyja have a personal name?
Random thought as I lay in bed last night contemplating the shiny I’ve won in one of Sebastian Lokason’s giveaways – the prize is Vanir related but I won’t know which of the prizes I’ve won until it arrives later in the month -and the amber hair dodad/bracelet (made by Ember at EmberVoices) that I won earlier this year.
Something is afoot. And not just the funny shaped thing on the end of your leg.
Anyway, ignore the terrible joke, I do have a point.
The god known as Frey, Freyr, Ingvi Freyr, or Frea, has a personal name, recorded a Ing. ‘Frey‘ and the variants mentioned above are titles meaning ‘lord’.
The goddess known as Freya, Freyja, Freo, Frowe, on the other hand does not have a recorded personal name. Her ‘names’ are titles, all meaning ‘lady’. So the question arises, does She have a personal name and if so, what is it?
November update: the novel and other things
Good afternoon, loyal readers,
I’ve been a bit quiet lately, haven’t I?
I’m trying to get as much as possible written on my novel; instead of doing NaNoWriMo this year I’m trying to complete my first draft of a novel already over 100,000 words long. I have made some progress but not as much as I would like. I have got closer to the finale and I know what changes I need to make to the original short story that acts as the last three chapters of this book. I also need to make some changes to the work I’ve done on the second book, but that’s a job for next year.
I’ve been distracted by the internet and television package I got at the beginning of the month. Yes, internet is a time-stealer, but having catch-up television and a decent digital connection is even worse (I’ve watched most episodes of series 2 of Arne Dahl and all of the ‘The Last Kingdom’ episode several times – thanks BBC iPlayer). I’ve only just joined the 21st century it seems and my brain isn’t coping well.
I’ve been working on my craft business as well, making stock and uploading it to the Listings page on Rosie’s Wonky Creations, and preparing for craft fairs etc. I have business cards for that business now, which I use as price tags at craft fairs. I’m not making any money so far, in fact it’s costing me a bit, but I’m persistent, and it gets me out of the house occasionally.
My brain is being a brat and keeps disturbing my sleep with brain chatter; it just will not shut up. I do come up with some decent ideas though so I don’t mind, except I’m exhausted all the time. My body finally won the argument last night; I went to bed at seven last night and woke up at ten this morning. For the last two hours I’ve been wide awake, busy with housework, craft business stuff and blog updates. Now I want to nap again. This isn’t good; I blame the cold virus currently infecting me.
I might go for a walk to see if that wakes me up. The dogs are still in season so they’ll have to stay home. They’re getting restless with not having a walk for so long, but they’re still indulging in their favourite hobby regularly: napping.
All the not sleeping and being tired, and having a cold, is interfering with my reading schedule as well as my writing schedule. I have some very good books to review for you all, but I haven’t had the energy. I read a bit on the bus yesterday and I’m going to try to dedicate an hour or two every day, but it all depends on my rather dodgy immune system.
I’m cold and tired, I think it might be nap time,
bye,
Rose
xXx




